Besides being a bit crazy (see earlier post), Thursday was also an exciting day... the first day of our 26th week!! I can't believe it! Only 11 weeks to go until our ultimate goal of 36 weeks!
A few months ago our church started SOAPing... an acronym created around daily scripture readings. This was something I had been interested in, so I picked it up, trying to get in at least a few per week. Then, about a month later, a friend gave me a guide for daily scripture readings focused on being pregnant - it's too cool. Each day has a verse, thoughts for prayer, and then some great questions for a journal entry. So far I haven't writen on this blog about my faith, or my beliefs, but there have been a lot of "ah ha" moments for me since I started this book, and one in particular came on Thursday... which is where this post is coming from...
Thursday night I'm a whirlwind of emotions... I'm excited to be home, in my own bed... I'm still nervous because I want everything to be perfect for our babies... I'm tired physically and mentally from the rollercoaster... I'm full of absolute joy that the babies are doing well... I'm thinking about work... I'm overwhelmed from the support by the man I married... I'm wondering what the next few days and weeks will hold... etc. So, I open up my book to the first day of the 26th week... the daily reading is titled Trusting God During Pregnancy... and the scripture is Proverbs 3:5-6... "Trust in the Lord will all your heart, lean not upon your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path." Even writing this two days later, my eyes still water and my heart still swells when I think about this verse.
I'm still working on completely handing over all of my fears, but the knowledge that God loves me, loves DB, loves our babies, and has a plan, gives my heart moments of peace during some of the most confusing times.